I am reminded of many things tonight and most of them are unhappy and I could share them but then I would just be bringing the world down with me and what is the point of that?

Sigh.

So I will sit and I will wallow and I will numb myself from thinking the dark thoughts and I will pray to my imaginary god that it works.

But it won't work and I know that- this will always be here.

It's with me.

Wherever I go.

Alone.

Too many things undone.

I will never catch up.