somehow the night still went on without me...
I'm tired and mentally wiped and don't want to go to work on just one day off. I can't be friendly to people. My friendly maker is tired. Don't they understand that?
I work in a pink-collar-ghetto.
It dawned on me the other day that I have been with _____company for 4 years. 4 years. I never imagined that.
It also dawned on me that it's been 4 years years since I've seen ____. (saving the name to protect the innocent, you know) I remember how we met up in Alberqueque and that weekend we shared where we drove around in the rain and played cards until 3am....
I don't do things like that anymore. Meet friends in hotel rooms hundreds of miles away. I don't fall in love anymore. I don't dare.
I wish I was the girl I used to be.
Now I'm boring and old and ....
tired.
I'm really very tired.